We all wore blue yesterday. Our family’s very first Autism Awareness Day after the diagnosis! We were going to celebrate our amazing Clara by visiting the Easter Bunny and going out to dinner, a Tuesday Night of family fun! It couldn’t be just a coincidence that her amazing Easter outfit is entirely blue, complete with a bunny tutu and a pom pom bunny tail on the shirt. (To Clara, that outfit is what dreams are made of. It. Doesn’t. Get. Any. Better.) Daddy would leave a bit early from work and Mommy would quickly go […]
Exhaustion.
I write about one thing: motherhood. Specifically, I write about being a mom to my beautiful daughter who was recently diagnosed with Autism. Recently is a really keyword in that sentence as it implies how much I don’t yet know and how much I have yet to learn. This is one of those stories. Matthew was away on business this week. He came home tonight, thankfully, because I’m very much in a state of not-being-able-to-function. Not that him traveling through three different time zones in three days is going to really help tonight, but an […]
Trust Your Gut
Since sharing our news, we have received countless lovely messages of support from family, friends, and in a few cases, complete strangers. More often than not, in addition to some kind of “you’ve got this” or “Clara is so lucky to have you as parents,” these messages have been accompanied in some way by one of two things: (1) I’m so sorry to hear this news or (2) How did you know? I want to devote this next post to those two comments, as I feel they’re both worthy of a heartfelt response: I’m so […]
Welcome to Holland
I’m a crier. Most people who know me well know that, so it came as a surprise even to me that I didn’t really cry as I processed the news of my daughter’s diagnosis of ASD. When the doctor said the words, a few tears snuck out, landing on the keyboard on which I was furiously typing notes. That evening, a few more tears came when I shared the news with my husband. I think it was two nights later that I wept ever so slightly, saying between breaths, I feel like I haven’t had […]
Come What May
Last week’s diagnosis came as a surprise, albeit not a complete shock, I suppose. Had we been truly expecting it, my husband probably would not have sent his 34-week pregnant and overly emotional wife to get the news by herself… He’s too good of a guy to let that happen on purpose. But I suppose on some level, I’ve known for quite some time that there was… something. I just didn’t know it was this. Autism. Autism? What do I really know about Autism Spectrum Disorder? I know it’s a neurological condition that affects a […]