Tonight, I find myself having some pretty vivid flashbacks. Matthew is downstairs building her big girl bicycle; shiny, pink, and complete with streamers on the handlebars, a basket and of course, a bell. It will surely be the hit of the day tomorrow. After returning from the store for a last minute procurement of balloons, I find myself compelled to write. Roughly four years ago yesterday, I went for a pedicure. As a first time soon-to-be-mom, I felt it important to look my best for childbirth, as if anyone in the delivery room would care! […]
You Are Loved
As any of my loyal readers know, the name of this project stemmed from the way I would put Clara to bed long before Eloise was even born. She is, and always has been, a lover of stars. When Clara was learning to talk, one of the first things she zeroed in on was the concept of stars. She would look up into the night sky, point, and say “Stars!” And so, it came to be that each night when tucking her in, I would tell her that I love her more than all the […]
2020: Reinventing Education and Motherhood
Okay, you win. Taking a new job in the midst of a once-in-a-lifetime, international pandemic, may not have been the smartest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Or was it? Since March 11, 2020, the world of education has been turned upside down. Every person who works in every school, definitely in the state, probably the country, and possibly the world, is feeling lost and overwhelmed right now. Educators are doing their best in an impossible situation, myself included. We are designing what virtual learning should look like and comparing that to what it […]
August.
As long as I can remember, August has been one of my favorite months. Despite the dog days of summer heat, it’s a time of anticipation and excitement. My mom and I developed a professional partnership during our annual Back-to-School Shopping trips which probably began as early as preschool. When I was going into Kindergarten, we purchased my very first First Day of School Outfit: a maroon bodysuit top and a coordinating floral, wait for it… skort. (That’s right, I’ve always lived with a certain amount of swagger.) As the years progressed, so did the […]
Quarantine Summer
Summer 2020 will likely go down in the history books as one that mothers everywhere never want to think about again. Where there should be princess camps and trips to the zoo, we have been left with socially distanced gatherings at best, and a couple of extra freeze pops every day to keep the kids quiet. Some days, I’m tremendously grateful that I have young children; I know they will never remember living through this pandemic, and with the exception of Clara’s vague understanding of the CoronaVirus being why we can’t see her cousins, this […]
International Autism Awareness Day: 2020
It’s 10pm on International Autism Awareness Day. The last thing I should be doing right now is writing because I’m dog tired. Tired from working longer hours than maybe ever in my lifetime, both professionally and personally. Like everyone out there reading this, I’m sure. But then again, it’s totally normal for me to be writing after the rest of my family has gone to sleep, especially since the world closed down. I haven’t been sleeping well, or at least I haven’t been able to fall asleep easily. My mind wanders, and despite my best […]
March Seventh
One year ago, we drove our sweet Clara to Boston, MA for a neuropsych evaluation at Boston Children’s Hospital. Matthew and I weren’t particularly worried or even nervous because she had made so much progress in the months leading up to the appointment. The evaluation lasted for what seemed like forever, but we were happy about that. We finally felt like all of Clara’s skills were really being assessed, and maybe even appreciated. We sat back as the pediatrician and psychologist performed various tests, intermittently asking us questions but for the most part, letting Clara […]
Preschool!
Well folks, she did it. As of today, we’ve got a full-blown preschooler on our hands! And like she does everything in life, she did it with a lot of passion and a little bit of sass. Last night, we packed Clara’s new space backpack, a gift that has been sitting dormant in the guest bedroom for weeks now. Extra clothes in case of accidents, winter gear for outdoor adventures, nut-free snacks for mid-morning sustenance. Then, we picked out her outfit, an adorable navy dress with gold accents- one of my recent favorite consignment shop […]
The Month of Clara
Today kicked off The Month of Clara. Throughout the next month, we will learn a great deal about our little one’s abilities and we will celebrate all the things that make her special. Clara begins ballet this week, something that she can’t stop talking about. She’ll don her pink tutu and ballet slippers, she’ll twirl, and hopefully, she will make friends. The following day, she will join her family and friends as the head of Clara’s Crew as we walk to raise awareness and funds for Autism research and supports. And in addition to those […]
National Daughters Day
Social media tells me that today is National Daughters Day, a holiday that is, without a doubt, made up by someone competing to see how many shares he or she can get. But aside from the illegitimacy of this so-called holiday, it’s actually quite lovely to think about. On a particularly difficult evening for me, when I’m tired of being climbed on, drooled on, sucked on, I’m going to take this fake, millennial holiday and use it as an excuse to talk about my two favorite people. Growing up, I was more-than-borderline obsessed with American […]